5 Months Letter

James and Mattie Rose,

I know every mama says this as every month goes by, but seriously, where is the time going? I looked over at both of you this morning, while you were going to town in your jumperoos, and you just looked so big to me! Definitely not the 5 pound little nuggets I brought home from the hospital. 

You are getting close to waking up from your nap, so I will try to make this quick! These past five months have been like nothing I could have ever imagined. Even if someone had told me this was exactly what it was going to be like, I still don't think it would have made a difference. You two have brought so much joy into my life in just the simplest of ways. You can do nothing but fall asleep in my arms watching Chuggington, and I can't help but smile and sometimes be moved to tears. You will read this one day and think "how silly, Mom." But should God so please to bless you with children one day, you will totally understand! At only 5 months old, it is neat to see how God has "fearfully and wonderfully" made both of you, so intentionally and distinctly! There are very few similarities between the two of you, except for you both LOVE to eat and LOVE to laugh. Mommy has never felt so funny before now! :) 

James, you are probably one of the sweetest, most loving babies on the face of the planet. You love to snuggle and giving and receiving kisses is a favorite of yours! I think you are going to be my sensitive little boy who cares so much for others. That smile that is on your face when you wake up from the night or a nap just does wonders for my soul. You love to jump in your jumperoo, laugh at Jake-dog, and carry on a conversation with anyone who will talk back to you. I love how when you are upset or tired you will just keep real close to my neck as I hold you. It makes me feel important. You love it when I pretend you have stinky feet and make a big deal out of it. This cracks you up and hearing that belly laugh of yours makes me crack up too! What you don't think is funny is a wet diaper. You HATE this... And you let mommy know all about it :) But that's okay, that's my job. You wear your emotions on your face just like your mommy (be careful, this can get you in trouble one day) and those eyebrows make each expression a comedy routine! I love you sweet little man and pray God has big things in store for you as you grow!

Mattie Rose, my little firecracker! You are a trip little girl! You are completely your mother's daughter. You like things a very specific way, and when you want something done, you want it done right then and there! I'll be praying the Lord would provide many opportunities for us to practice patience together :) Here lately, you're fussiness has calmed down and we have been able to call you "Squeaks" again. You love to talk, and when you get really excited, you let out this high-pitched, glass-breaking squeal! It gets me every time... You are an emotional extremist, there is no middle ground with you. You are either incredibly happy or just down-right-mad! You are 12 pounds of intensity. When you play with your favorite red ball and links, you become so focused on the task at hand. You carefully examine anything you lock eyes with. And once it's grabbed your attention, God forbid anyone take it away. You also are very loving. Any time you are lying next to James you immediately reach over for him, just to make sure he is there and to grab his hand. I hope and pray this need for each other grows as you two do! Squeaks, I love you very much and pray that I continue to grow in my walk with the Lord so that as you get older and we walk through life together, you don't have to go searching for a godly woman to look up to. That she'll be just down the hall. 

And because you both are now letting me know nap time is over, I don't have time to rearrange your pictures from our little morning photo shoot...

{giggling little girl}

{being sassy}

{this was from the end - you were both over it}

{baby james}

{sweet little man}

{could eat you up buddy}

{awww mom, you don't have to tell me i'm your favorite :) }

{there's that intensity}

{you get it all from your mama}

{love you}

{older sister, little sister. younger brother, big brother.}

{this is your reaction to "shooooweee, stinky feet!"}

{you love your quilt}

{there's those eyebrows}

{you know exactly where each other is at all times}

{tired babies}

{you are definitely morning people}

{those eyebrows!}

{"i'm not sure what i'm supposed to be doing..."}

{ugh. that sweet face. it will get you whatever your want :) }